~FINAL EXAM~

FINAL EXAM MAKE ME CRAZY!!!!

Lots more to study... =(

~God please give me the strength~

After so long, this is the night that really make me sad.. i know it is my fault by saying all the harsh words.. i didn't meant to say all that to u.. i must too emotional that time when i message u saying all the harsh words.. im not feeling well that night and nobody care bout me including u.. i know u are just trying to hurt me as much as you can so that i hate u, by saying that u had so much fun with your friends.. its ok.. but i really hope that u rily had fun with your friends coz u miss them more than u miss me... God, please give me the strength to face all this.. I love you..

You are big enough to think..

What a boring day... how many times i need to tell that please please please sleep early and go to class... u are not a small boy anymore right.. im tired of it.. i did call you, and u answer. but u didn't do what u said.. BORING... it not that you don't have time to do such things that u are suppose to do, but you are just a lazy and lazy and lazy person.. i don't know how to help you anymore if you yourself didn't help yourself right..you told me that you going KL this Saturday.. ok fine, when i ask how bout work? and you said you miss your friend.. ya ya.. like 1-2years you guys didn't meet each other right.. nah, up to you la... your life what.. i cant say anything much about it, coz i know we will have an argument end of the day.. so keeping quiet is better right..i dont know how to tell you.. i scared that if i tell you this, you might feel down and think that you are not good for me and etc... but i need somebody that can be independent and think for the future.. yar i know life is to have fun.. but i need someone that can guide me.. not someone that i need to guide.. i love you sweetheart.. i hope you will realize it early before its too late.. here a song for you sweetheart...

All by myself by Celine Dion

When I was young

I never needed anyone

And making love was just for fun

Those days are gone

Livin' alone

I think of all the friends I've known

When I dial the telephone

Nobody's home

All by myself

Don't wanna be

All by myself

Anymore

Hard to be sure

Sometimes I feel so insecure

And loves so distant and obscure

Remains the cure

All by myself

Don't wanna be

All by myself

Anymore

All by myself

Don't wanna live

All by myself

Anymore

When I was young

I never needed anyone

Making love was just for fun

Those days are gone

All by myself

Don't wanna be

All by myself

Anymore

All by myself

Don't wanna live

Oh

Don't wanna live

By myself, by myself

Anymore

By myself

Anymore

Oh

All by myself

Don't wanna live

I never, never, never

Needed anyone

Beyonce- Broken Hearted Girl

Its hurt, n no one know how bad it is... Just me, myself n my heart know bout it...

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

~My sister graduation~

Oppsss, long time already didn't upload my story... kinda busy this few days..

Last Monday, i wen to my sister convo, its kinda tired, coz i wake up early (4am) on that day..

I feel so happy for her coz she already success in her studies. Wish her all the best for the next step in her life. I can c the shining in her eye. My parents feel so proud to have a daughter like her coz she's the 1st person who make my parents leg enter the convocation hall.. Bak kata org, sejuk perut mak gua kandungkan Lynda coz dapat tengok dia success. haha.. after the ceremony finish, we went to photo studio to take family photo.. its kinda expensive the shop that we went, they give cut throat price.. haha.. bt wat to do, we already take the photo, so my dad just pay it..On that day itself, i come back melaka coz i have class the next day..

Tuesday, nothing much hapen, just went to my class as usual at 9am, kinda sleepy in that class coz not enuf sleep.. :-(

after my class, we (my bf n i) went to the service center to service my car. thank god he company me, if not i will feel bored.. after that, we had our lunch at sushi king in JJ...

Wednesday, arrgggg... damn, i got morning class.. it is actually my replacement class.. my favorite lecturer Mr.Effandi class, d weired part is, i dun feel sleepy in his class, coz he's cute n always make jokes.. thanx to him for making the class interesting.. today we had our brunch at Nando's, after that had drink caramel coffee ice blended at coffee bean, my fav place.. at nite we went pak putra to have roti cheese naan... nyam nyam..

~L.O.V.E~

L.O.V.E.

He propose me to be his gf, and my answer is YES... i know, its sound insane, he's already my bf, but why he do the second time propose? this is because, yesterday night, we had a lil argument, unbalance emotional that effect our relationship... so we would like to start it all over again.. What is LOVE?

Love Means Treating Others Well

Love Means Pleasure

Love Means Caring

I love him so much, n i know he do so. He don't complain so even i did anything wrong. He threat me like im his lil princess. I'm so luck to have him.. i know, in relationship, there's always up n down, so to have a good relationship, we must control not to get angry very fast.. Hope this relationship will last forever.. I love u so much da da...=)

It's My Fault

At last, we manage to go Taragon today.. But it wasn't an enjoyable moment.. Its My fault.. I make the day so dull, i'm just not in the mood today.. I know its my fault.. im so sorry sweetheart.. I'm truly deeply sorry that all this while i didn't realize that, it was a mistake, if i know it hurt u badly, i wouldn't did that in the 1st place. Now i know it wasn't right to do so. It's my fault, im rilly sorry. Even u are not angry with me, i still feel so bad doing this all this while, i wish that i can turn back the time to correct it. If i at ur position, i will felt the same way too. It's my fault. I'm so sorry. I promise that it wont repeat the same thing again. :-(

Wagon RM5000 end up RM500

Yesterday 28/7/2010 around 6pm, rily make me down so many times... after finish study in MMU library, we wen back home. But once reach home, his frenz (Roshan) said that wana go kajang to buy a 2nd hand Mercedes Wagon that cost RM5000(its consider very cheap). But unfortunately i already promise my frenz that wil go Taragon with them.. Because of Roshan rily want to buy the car and he so cal got no other fren that can help him at this moment, so loga and i got no choice (pity him la).. he said by 8something can reach melaka d.. but after negotiate with the car owner son that know nothing about car and he drag the time till 9.10pm, this asshole Roshan manage get the car for RM500. im hapy for Roshan coz he manage to get the cheapest car in his life, kinda crazy negotation.. We move out from Kajang around 9.20pm, and Loga drive the small little Naza till 150km/h expecting that we can reach Melaka early so that i can go Taragon.. but end of the day, we didn't go also, coz when he cal the shop, the owner said they are closing.. :-( Here where the drama bout im going to die happen coz didnt manage to go Taragon.. hahaha, kinda funny... So we(Loga, myself, Tika, Sukun and Wafi) end up in windmill...i had nasi goreng tom yam and the rest had nasi goreng cendawan, nyam nyam... hehee... Sad but Fun..

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What a day... feel so damn excited coz wana go library study with my love 1 n my frenz..

but end of the day, i got senju... he busy sleeping.. :-(

his friend come over and had lunch wit him.. 2nd time senju... :-(

wat to do, i alwayz got senju wat... but its ok.. im not angry, juz a lil sad coz promise are alwayz meant to b broken right.. hehehe..

im so tired of study.. i hate it so much wen i cant solve the solution..

n ya, i hate brainless people who talk so loud in the library... argggggg.. get your ass off from the library...

nothing much happen today, coz most of the time i sleep coz a lil tired dealing with my brain..:-)

hope to have a better day tomorrow... ~peace ya~

My 1st post... :-)

Hi people... actually i'm a lil nervous coz tiz will b my 1st post in tiz blog.. haha.. wat a silly gurl rite.. Im stil thinking what shit should i write in tiz blog... mayb i can start wit sum crap about my life..

My name is Carolyn but every1 wil cal me Cat.. i get tiz name not because i walk like a cat or i look like a cat or i'm sexy like a cat.. tiz is because last time my great2 grandma cant rely pronounce my name (carolyn) properly, so she started to cal me cat.. n every1 at home wil cal me CAT.. here where i get the lil sexy name CAT.. . haha.. im a mix rojak coz my dad is bidayuh from Sarawak and my mum is nyonya chinese from Melaka.. i cant speak bidayuh n i cant speak chinese... what a waste right, i know.. wat to do.. bt my bahasa melayu is kinda power la.. nyonya language is my mother tongue. im 22 years old, still young right, but mentality make me think that im old d.. :-p

im kinda lazy person.. like to waste my time having fun fun n fun... but when there is no money, no talk.. i love to eat.. i alwayz think that im fat, bt acording to my family n my lover, im not fat.. im juz crazy to think that way.. hahaha.. minimize my sleeping hour is my hobby. i will feel guilty if i sleep a lots.. for me, i would like to know every single thing that happen around me, that is y i duwan to miss it by not sleeping.. but wen i rily sleepy, of coz i will sleep la.. x kan i crazy pulak didnt sleep the whole day..

I have lots of loving people around me.. my family: papa, mama, e lin, ku huat, amah, lynda, melvin... there wil alwayz b there wen i need them.. for me, family come 1st...

I stil have my lovely dovely baby boy (raja) that love me truly deeply and madly.. hahaha and my crazy mazzy friendzzzzz (lots of them for me to list it out) that alwayz do crime together wit me.. i love u people.. thanx for alwayz b wit me..